back to square one

shockers: unforeseen turn of events in contrast of what you expected. i remember American Idol season 8 and its shocking results, that Kris Allen won. lot of people apparently expected otherwise. this time I'm the one who experienced a shocker, though it's not very shocking for me, i don't know why.

maybe that's why i was caught unprepared when that thing happened. sad to say and unfortunate enough, i was sacked. yeah, after roughly two weeks at work, i was out with a very unacceptable reason for many. they sacked me because the executives their have to choose from a lot of SEO trainees like me who will stay and advance further to the next level. they told me that i'm one of the many they've already sacked after signing a contract that turned out to be pointless and meaningless. they're broke it anyway, and i don't want to dig deep into it as it would only waste much more of my time. for me, i care a little, but not to the point of getting pissed off or whining about why it happened. i was monotonous and just took it all in. there's sadness of course but only little.

i told myself, well? brilliant! if you don't want me, then don't. it's their loss anyway. besides, a lot of opportunities await me out there. i want to embrace and stick faithfully on being positive and patient when it comes to these things. i accepted it and kept in mind that there's reason why it all end up that way. if there's any consolation, it would be the short time experience i had and that's one of those things that matter. i've learned and i could use those in future.

i told my parents about it. they're saddened and blamed the company. i told them it's all right, i don't care, let them be. no point if i wallow in disappointment.

it happens, the shocker. it will always be, even if we condition ourselves to anticipate expected and unexpected happenings. guess i have to take another journey of exploring and finding. eventually i'll found what i've been looking for. hope, determination, and patience are at my side, and especially God who was, is, and always will be GREAT.